I'm ready to move.... on

I am ready to move on. I have done a lot with the last 23 years of my life that have prepared me for the real world ahead. I have graduated. I have secured myself a good job... but I know there is something bigger out there for me...

... It is finally time to take control and move forward. I have been "waiting" for my life to start for so long. I don't mean that I haven't had a life thus far. I have. I have had a great life filled with fun, excitement, change, sadness, and love. What I mean by "waiting" to start my life is that I feel as if I am still not an adult. Sure, I'm mature (most of the time) and have responsibilities... but I have not began what I imagine my life to eventually become. Does that make sense? Probably not.

I have always imagined myself living in a big city, where I can walk to my local coffee shop and sit in a big comfy chair and write. Just write all day long. And read :-) Of course I had to add some of that in there. Sure I could do that here in Michigan... and I have for some of my freelance writing assignments. But I am referring to real writing. Meaningful stuff that I WANT to write, not just getting paid to.

I want a book tour, I want to travel, I want to sign my name to something I am proud of. I want to read reviews in the New York Times celebrating my achievement. I want to go to the movies and in the opening credits see "Movie based on novel by Lisa Marie Dalian". I want all those things. However, what have I done thus far to move toward them? Nothing. Well not nothing. I have been practicing my craft and getting side jobs to write. But I haven't buckled down to do it. I know you have read me complaining about my lack of motivation to start before. How do I break this cycle?

Well my first step is to move out. I moved back home with y parents after graduation since I wasn't making very much money to start. While I am still not making all that much, I feel it is time to move on. I think if I am on my own, I will feel more independent and will feel motivated to get a move on in my life. Who knows if this will work... it is all speculation at this point.

Bottom line is... I need a change. Everyone I know has something big happening in their lives. Many of my closest friends are going on to even higher education; getting their masters, going to med school, dental school, and everywhere in between. My sister just got married. Another close friend is engaged and just bought and moved into their new house. Where am I? Sure I graduated from U of M and have a job. Why don't I go get a masters you ask? Why? I want to be a writer. You don't need a masters to do that. In fact it would be taking away from the time (not to mention $$$) that I should be writing.

Since I'm not buying a house, getting married, getting engaged, going on to even higher education... I need to find something special for me to be proud of. And I think a move is just what I need right now.

The $$$ is going to be tight... but that's what having a savings account is for. Let's hope this all pays off. My multiple trips to IKEA, Bed Bath and Beyond, Target, and more are going to put me in the hole, but I have a feeling it will all be worth it.