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Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Disappointed...

Do you ever find that almost everything that is hyped-up a disappointment? Colleges, careers, deals/savings at stores, movies, tv shows?

Let's address these one by one, shall we?

Colleges: When I graduated from high school, I was extremely nervous to begin my journey into college... especially at a top University like U of M. It wasn't so much the academics that I feared; though that is what I probably should have been quaking at the knees for... it was living at the dorms and meeting new friends. I went in as a freshman to a single room at a central campus dorm. Lucky huh? Maybe not, as I pondered my first night alone. While I lay on my bed in my nicely color-coordinated bedroom of lavender, black, and zebra printed blankets and throws, I listened to the muffled laughter reverberating down the halls. I felt left out. That feeling was definitely hard to get over. I was disappointed at how empty my full dorm felt those first few nights (or weeks). Luckily, my savior disguised as a bubbly tall brunette plopped her ass down on my floor one day and just started talking. It is hilarious to think of now, but she just made everything better... in just those small minutes where I became a member of that dorm. I was no longer an outsider. Well, in a sense I wasn't, but I never got to enjoy the true pleasures of rooming w/ a complete stranger. True, I could have been stuck w/ some monster of a girl (like some people I know... C), and I got to decorate my room in my distinguished tastes, listen to my TV as loud as I wanted, watching whatever I wanted, and most importantly, have the privacy that I needed and so wonderfully used (no worries about someone walking in mid-sex-session). College itself wasn't a disappointment... I met new people, gained new friends, re-ignited friendships w/ old friends, and of course, learned a lot (about beer pong... haha)... but I don't think my college experiences ended up like many others. I didn't party till all hours of the night every weekend, I didn't participate in frat parties (thank god for that!), I never blacked out drunk... all in all, I didn't have many of the classic shady nights that college is known for (though there were a few.....). I don't regret anything… and yet I’m still a little disappointed. I’m mainly disappointed because things didn’t last. College ends… and the real world is there to slap you in the face, which leads me to my next issue….

Careers: After my early graduation from U of M, I believe my future would hold nothing but the best. I’m not as confident about that anymore. Folks who graduate with a more general degree are in for a rude awakening… competition for “cool” positions are fierce. Once in a so-called “cool” position, the coolness of it all wears off almost immediately. Then you are stuck in a low-paying job at a huge company working on “cool” accounts, getting treated like the entry-level that you are. Not exactly what I imagined it would be. Disappointed to say the LEAST! My hopes were high, my best can-do attitude in place, I trudged on. I imagined, “Well, at least I will work with some nice, fun people.” Again, I was lead astray in that though. While yes, there were some c-workers I connected w/. But overall, I was let down. Maybe it was the less-busy accounts I worked on where I actually could leave the office at 5pm (most days) while others had to stay until all hours of the night… maybe it was the fact many new people came to me for help/advice than to others… maybe it was the fact I live and hour + from many of these individuals… maybe it was because I was promoted after only working 9 months. Who knows what lead to me not having the huge group of friends from work (while I do have some…). In college, I never imagined I’d end up working in an office. While I do enjoy my new position and the people working around me (though, at 23 I am the youngest by far in my group… the only one not married or pregnant or a parent), I still feel this isn’t the right place for me. I don’t think I’m built for this office-life. And what I thought office life would be (survivable??) I am beginning to feel… I don’t know… disappointed.

Deals/Savings at Stores: We see all these damn commercials and advertisements (hahaha) promoting the big savings and deals you will receive when purchasing anything from a mattress to clothing. “Come on down to House of Blinds and Drapery… if you find a lower price somewhere else, we’ll give you ours for free!” Then when you get down there, present the better deal… there is always some damn fine print that keeps you from your free merchandise. I just want to scream, “Dude… I don’t even need drapes… I just wanted to get this shit for free!!!” Damn the man! Save the Empire!  hahaha sorry!

Movies: Godzilla (the re-make), Austin Powers 3, Ring II… need I say more?

TV shows: Of course I will be speaking about Laguna Beach season finale. They hyped that up so much and what a total let-down. They said it would be commercial free (which it was, props to “The Family Stone” for that… in theatres Dec. 16, check your local listings), extended (the episode was only 20 minutes…when someone says “extended” I expect double the original time allotted), and some special surprises. Would you like to know what the special surprises were? There is going to be a new season w/ a new bunch of kids (duh!) and there will be a spin-off w/ LC called “The Hills” where she is living in L.A. working as an intern for Teen Vogue. Considering me, my friends, and probably most of the demographic that watch this show already knew that… where was the damn surprise. MTV should do some research to find out what percentage of their key demographic has gotten word of this before calling anything a “surprise”. A little research people! Let’s move on… so the episode blew as well. Nothing happened. Jason and Cedric didn’t end up in bed together, Jessica didn’t act like a slut, Kristin didn’t talk shit about anyone, LC didn’t complain like a biatch, and StePHAN ended up alone (which we all knew would happen). All I have to say is BOO!!! to that episode!!! You would have done a lot more. It’s a fixed reality show… fixed meaning the editors and producers “help” create the drama… do your frickin’ job!!!

Other than all this… the world is great, I am peachy, and I hope to begin writing my book soon. I have a rough outline as it stands… let’s see how far I come in a month. Let’s hope for at least character development and possible 2 chapters.

1 Comments:

At 11:06 AM, Blogger Lisa D said...

Everyone is entitled to look back a little and wished they had done things a little differently. If you didn't have any regrets, you wouldn't be human. The job is going great. Hope you are doing well with everything... regrets, successes, and everything in between!

 

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